Intimacy outside from my lover was new to me up until about 2 years ago. Because of my past traumas with sex and love and my self acceptance, I feel like I wasn’t too into letting people in. I had never experienced intimacy with a friend, that love and closeness you can feel towards a friend was not something I even thought about because I never experienced it. Having sexual partners was my only form of intimacy, my family did not show any kind of intimacy either and they still don’t, not physical at least. My mom/grandparents hadn’t told me they loved me until about 5 years ago. It has made me the rock I am today, and I totally love it! but now I’ve grown to take intimacy in from friends, lovers,family, and appreciate it even if it is for one night. I love intimacy. I’m sure you get tired of me saying I love everything, but literally I only let things/people in my life that I want to love.
Doing the work that I do also teaches me so much about the intimacy between people, experiencing these moments is magical. Especially, if you’re watching. Watching intimate moments is so different than participating in intimate moments. I usually like planning a set out but when Ty came to me showing interest in him and Tetra doing a shoot with me before Tetra had her bottom surgery done, I really just wanted them to be natural and capture that moment between them on Tetra's bed.
*I took down my last post because the video that was a part of it was removed so until I figure out the situation with my new site, those photos + video will be unavailable.
THIS SATURDAY!!! July 15th I will be premiering my erotica short "Just A Little Taste" at the REDCAT, you can purchase tickets here- https://secure.outfest.org/tixSYS/2017/filmguide/Title/JJ
Also, this Saturday!!! I will have some prints up at Lethal Amounts from 9pm-2am